(Beware... If your eyes can't take beautiful stories, stop reading this long post)

It's just my opinion and what I've been thru.

Some kind of reflection in life..

But fuck off if you're a hater tho.

Going from a single status to a relationship status isn't easy.

Took me months to consider and years and I still can't overcome the phobia..

I'm not saying that I know a lot..

But I quite abit on knowing what guys thinks..

Growing up in a environment where my relatives are Mostly guys..

Like , out of 20... 15 are guys...

In primary school, we always hang out as a group.. 3 girls with 7guys?

And in secondary school, my class has only 12 girls out of 36 in total..

Much less to say, only 4 girls out of the whole class..

Entering to my clubbing life, definitely more guys than girls..

And in my modelling life, well... It's mostly always working in a environment of guys...

Be it army mess event, car event or whatsoever..

Pros and cons with what I've been thru..

Relationships after relationships..

One after another..

Hurts after hurts..

Definitely we will grow.. (Becoming stronger)

After the 3 years relationship with someone I thought I would be with forever.. I've learnt a lot..

Guys will always go for the fresher ones...

And they will always think the grass is always greener at the other side..

Guys like to lie.. Be it small or little..

And they still think they are always right..

This relationship taught me well..

Instead of looking at handsome guys...

I notice more of girls.. With big boobies.. With sexy body, slim thighs and pretty faces..

Not that I'm envy of them, but I'm more of wary.

Although I have my boy at my side, I will think that he will be noticing them..

Not surprise at all, sometimes they really do!

I learnt that, I should spend more money on myself instead of making my other half happy and take me forgranted.

I should be upgrading myself from top to toe..

Last but not least, you made me learn that no point being with someone who makes you so insecure... And someone who is too comfortable with you.. Thinking that no matter how you look or take someone forgranted..

Think twice.. That's the answer for what we are now..

I was happy with you, but am happier leaving you ☺️

Next was being with a guy who is a 大男人.

Felt so secure being with you..

Because everything was planned nicely. What's best is, how miricle it is that we both have the same birthday!!

It was all fated.

I've got all the dotes and our future much planned.. You will wan me to be having a good life next time..

But sadly, happy things have to come to an end..

Time after time I get super turned off by lies and comments by you..

But I'm super glad to what I've become now.. (Except my laziness!)

Thanks for rating me 5.5/10! Lol!

That's how I try to prove you wrong...

When you tell me that your camps have mess and everything..

Yes, now I can do it too!!

And I hope you know there is something called "taking back your words".

And know that words can never be forgotten to some people. Because everyone is different..

Prolly, I din love you as much.

Now, being together with someone who loves to play a lot...

Use to Have a group of fucked up friends around him.

And I guess he is someone who haven't really played enough yet tho..

I can say that he is trying real hard.. To keep this going on..

Doesn't really know how to talk..

Sometimes his words gives me insecurities..

Someone who is super hard to please 😜

Well, I wonder why guys always like to prevent their partners ... Example,

- wearing too sexily when going out, but you can actually stare at other girls wearing sexily?

And end up admiring other girls that look so hot yet your girl differs.. When you din allow in the first place?. (Contradicting much)

Another instance is that, only your love one knows what's good for you..

Those that are not really close to you wont give a fuck on whatever you do tho.

They may just give you some nice things that you wanna hear.. Been thru done that.

When I always don't agree with what you say, you will say that I am pouring cold water and not supportive...

And when I support you all the way when I know you can do better in something else, and you failed...

You'll think that I'm useless and I can't guide and let you learn.. Tell me how easy is this to please ??

(Just whining)

But Neverthless, you always let me disturb you in any way I like..

And I always love to see how you give in to me when I want to eat or do somethings.. (Even when I don't really want it.. Feel so love when you dote me)

Making sure that my shoulders and legs aren't stiff by giving me a stress relieve massage... After every few days)

Run and swim with me when I feel fat..( but now It's your turn 😝)

Running errands for me..

And making sure I don't feel tired going home myself after work .. Fetching me around :)

After all, I'm still trying to get the mindset of "single is better" away from my mind.

I don't have to bother if my guy is thinking/fantasising other girls..

Neither do I have to be controlled by whatever I wanna do...

And think about whoever will teach him the wrong things...

Going to the wrong place..

Giving in to temptations...

Having overseas phobia..

All the lying become so sensitive..

Last seen...

Facebook and phone checking...

Argh! Too many to list!

But I believe, one day..

I will find someone whom I have all the insecurities put down, being a real man.. And keep to all his promises and make me grow up to be in a mature relationship and life 😉

Ps: I'm not a perfect girl anyway.

And I'm super hard to please too.

Being with me is no easy task.

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