Congrats to my beloved cousin , Renee on her confirmation.
When i went to OLPS to celebrate with her, I felt like tearing..
I dun know if it is a feeling of happy or sad. .
I remember, during my confirmation, not people attend..
Like, renee's family dint attend, some people have to go choir practise..
And until now, i still remember that jie jie jacelyn once asked me when we went out to marina that time..
What did grandma gave me for confirmation ..
And i told her i dun know and forget.. i remember who gave me what..
I just couldnt recall .. Until last year, eunice's confirmation .. Grandma pass me a pendant..
And say, it was for my confirmation ..
Sometimes i wonder , why am i not being loved as much as others?
Why cant i receive the same treatment as others?
Some people can get all the attention and yet, im left out.
Probably this is life?
However, God has his plans for me i guess?
He gave me such wonderful parents,brother, boyfriend and friends.
I am those person who will bear grudges..
Thinking.. this person dint even give me present for this and that, why should i give..
My wonderful mum will be like.. is ok .. just give.. its not bout receiving .. its about giving..
my brother is always there to talk to me in the night before i go to bed..
my boyfriend.. Is like being influenced by me..
Whomever i hate, he will hate too .. haha.. oh my..
Many things that i remember clearly..
Remebering how cousin was showing off her N level results that made me study so hard to win her for o level ..
Remembering how brandon bite me at Granny place during new year..
Remembering how amanda went all the way down 6storey in sch last time just to get me my phone pouch (:
Remembering how Jie Jie jacelyn gave me a surprise for my bday last year.
Remembering how i celebrated my most memorable birthday with surprise at grandpa's wake and which is the last one he can celebrate with me.
Remembering how Godpa hug everyone except me..
Remembering how i got scolded for my friends wanting to get a fight in pri6 for a maple game.
Remembering how i first met colin
Remembering how i first made friends in sec sch.
Remembering how Colin and 1st quarrelled and resolved.
WEEE !
finally, outing with baby after 2 weeks..
our purpose was to go and collect the lens from the supplier.
and then, we went to bugis junction to look for baby's new shoes that he wanted long ago .
went to everlast, nice shoes but... for mud ..
went around .. but still dint see anything nice..
had pastamania for lunch ^^
then went to bugis street to look for brother's present...
but instead, i found a heels that i like (: and i wanted like 2 weeks ago ..
i finally got it... hopefully i wear.
then went to get something for brother... surprise him tmr (:
went to cinema level .. feel like watching kungfu panda 2 ..
and the ticket box was so dam packed.
so baby phoned up edric and he booked ticket from home and we got the tickets str8 (:
cool right? though the cinema seats suck to the core !
the show is dam funny.
after movie, we went to bhg, puma shoes caught his eyes..
but,, no size...
rush to puma outlet at ileuma..
and he got his shoes.. for $99 . . phew...
he's indeed pampering himself. hahaha..
so .. we queue up for koi .. dam long queue... and tako .. the original and only outlet in sg..
one word to say .. NICE ! our dinner thou . haha..
went to tornado and played awhile.. and before we realise.. it was past midnight when we are going home.. haha.. time spent tgt passed just too fast..
weee.. Its friday :D
mummy's chinese bday ..
red eggs and vemiceli . . yummy !
been two weeks since i feel so relax.
this piano thing is always stuck in my head.. and thinking that exam is nearing, im more stressed out..
and cause i dint went for piano last week, its like piling up in my brain and heart . haha.
CT is coming, oh my... gna work hard .
preorder 1 lens has arrived :D and im gna go collect it tmr.. wee!
gna play games. bye ~
A very terrible day yesterday..
bruises on my shoulders.. cause of the rain and lead to many causes and the trolley fell on me. Like WTF !
and cookie bite my mp3 usb wire and my only use for charging it.
shall i get an ipod??? instead of buying all the charger and stuffs?
but the mp3 is 5GB . ahh !
when amanda bought her 2GB mp3 for like 99 bucks right?
Like a waste to just leave it there.
well, today was different. (Y)
i found another source of charging my mp3 alr.
but cant xfer song.. So i have to stick to all these songs forever?
when i have just downloaded all those nice songs :(
ahh !
while otw to sch this morning,
this senior in front of me, going back for graduation was texting his GF with his phone so high and i can see it dam clearly..
i saw him texting this : " i cant wait to see you later :) i miss you so much and you're just like the celebraties and im your fan . "
i was like... awwww.. so sweet... haha.
oh well, sorry for peeping.
had practical today and its kinda fun ..
did drilling and clamping... and pretty boy was in the same workshop ^^ haha..
but he is too annoying.. cant stop shouting with thavan everytime..
every time i see reece, i will be like thinking, " why are you so unique and different from others?"
he aint those typical kinda of guy and he's quite nice :) haha.
should i go for class tmr?



Dress code for tmr: checkered? haha..
went swimming with manda, sy and pj today .
we were more like chatting instead of swimming.. haha..
and i can even forget to bring the most important thing.
amanda, please dun scold me for what im gna post.
webcam in sch .
















I've just realised this is my 401 post :D
quite a lot.
Monday blues tmr.. and my whole class is gonna wear blue tmr?
to show people its monday blues..
oh my goodness..
i cant imagine how cute my class is gna be.
and i dun know how to express how much i love this class .. (:
the world is just tooo small..
my secondary sch classmates are my cousins friends now?
haha.. oh wow..

seriously. i think i gna start loving myself more :D
should buy more clothings and make up stuffs.
thinking of dye-ing my hair again next mth :D



its the 26th month together and here is a love poem.

It doesnt matter how long we may have been stuck in a sense of our limitations.
If we go into a darkened room and turn on the light,
it doesnt matter if the room and turn on the light,
it deosnt matter if the room has been dark for a day, a week or ten thousand years--
we turn on the light and its illuminated.
Once we control our capacity for love and happiness,
the light has been turned on.

-Sharon Salzberg

A very long day today.. 8am to 6pm.
and im glad that i actually survived.
Had speech for IS commis.. and we only had 5mins to think of what to talk .
I was actually kinda scared at first, but after the long waiting time to hear all individuals, i was like.. "Can it be my turn ?? i want to get this over and done with ."
IS ended @ 11.30 and went for lunch with bodoh and his friends.. (so sorry, after meeting so many times, i dun even know his name, haha)
and they send me to class.. so good of them . haha.
Had autocad.. and everyone was like playing all their games instead of drawing?
Thanks to Siva, ethan, Riz and amirul for accompanying me after sch...
We stayed back in class and played monopoly deal .. (Y)
ethan dam asshole.. keep showing me his card.. Cheater bug. haha.
Siva then started playing childhood songs and indian songs which he himself, an indian hates typical indian . WTH ! played till 3plus and i went off to BM1 lesson .
Test today .. oh my.. gonna flunk it ... boo !
after everything, home sweet home ^^
So many so many to talk about..
and yet, im so lazy to type everything out.
so, i think i'll just say abit only.. haha.
m1 line today sux.. tried calling people but cant... only can reach amanda's phone.. sux man !
i feel that im an alien now, only need to eat a meal a day . :)
went back to west spring today to get my testimonials and o cert.
the book is dam nice ^^
Went out to celebrate Baby's graduation ..
watch Fast 5 at vivo gv max.
the theatre is dam big..
and lucky we booked the seats.. cause its dam full..
to reward him , treated him to steamboat at bugis..
and cause of the steamboat, i think i gained weight..
oh no ..
im so addicted to popcorn now... have been eating it everyday and im adding more heat to my throat which is starting to feel pain :/
IS tmr and i haven done the introduction T.T
and make up lesson tmr..
BORING !
maths test tmr and CHANGI NAVAL BASE on friday ! woohoo .dam cool
and being the only girl in the prac class doesnt seems so bad.
received a lot of helpful people asking me if i need help..
even all the teachers take special attention on me.
feel so fortunate to be in this class with so many gentlemans.
i LOVE my class TTM .
we're like so bonded together now.
we meet up everyday and walk to class in the morning..
we eat lunch tgt and during extra time, we will go to our our space @ 72 to play taboo.
and the best aboutt his class is that, they wont leave one another out and they make me laugh when im sad.
and also my Girlfriends.
Im so sorry that i couldnt attend mabel's birthday.
but at least we met up and im happy to see you all :D
i dun wish to change class 6mths later.
so here are some pics on that day and some outdated pics.

playing puzzle with siva when we are just so bored.

of all pics, mine -,-

I love her body shape and the way she move her body ^^

I love her body shape and the way she move her body ^^

Just to vent my frustration !
i got so many tons of work to do !!
so pek chek ..
i dun know how to do auto cad :(
keep redo-ing non stop ! fuck man !
still got 2 project on hand.
piano homework to do .
haven practise.
EG1 test tmr which im not ready .
EMB1 tutorial 3 and 4 to hand in .
EG1 online tutorial to hand in .
WHAT THE HACK !
and im so freaking tired .. cause i just came back less than 3 hrs.
Done with drawing.
Hopefully im correct :D
its 12.20 am now.. and its baby's graduation :D
congratulation Mr Colin Tan ^^
your one step closer to army. haha.
a very stupid day.
had naval architecture. and we needa wear shoe while i wore sandals which was not acceptable..
and so .. ethan, jia wei, sean and i went to get shoes.
so lucky that all my friends dint answer the phone.. had no choice but to borrow shoe from a stranger who happen to walk past. haha.
Thank her a lot. haha ! Thank god too .
gonna go to bed soon .
Nights diary.
TGIF !
Im so glad that it is finally friday ..
finally get to get a breather from schooling everyday .
i love my classmates TTM !
we are so bonded till we stick to wherever we go.
they just wont miss people out.
and im very happy..
this morning, met up with bodoh and kk to sch .
met my friends halfway but only few saw me..
suddenly, i heard xavier asking, where's seraphina?
and i was like .. shock ? haha !
and we're gonna have a 3D2N chalet soon...
oh my .. feel so weird.
and i think with sivanes in the class, there's born to be laughter.
im cant wait to go for movies tmr. i think i deserve a short break :)
i wanna eat choco fondue :(

ps: the guys in class are very gentlemen :D
oh yeah !
i think im starting to love wednesday .
at first, when i saw the time table and there is so-so lesson for 4hrs..
i was like.. OMG !? NOT POSSIBLE?
and today. 1st lesson .. i find it quite fun ..
there are pros and cons in this grp ..
pros... when idk .. guys will help..
teacher will also pay more attention to me.
cons... teacher like to ask me a lot of question which i dun understand. haha..
and my friends will help me buy telling the teacher not to stress me.. haha !
cons.. i need mke things tied before starting the machine.. and i have no strenght..
pros.. other guys will help me :D
haha !
now i know why poly people can be so mascular and sexy in ngee ann.. just to go to class, needs to walk 10 to 15mins under the sun before reaching.. oh my !
hahah..
gonna go watch my fav show now. tadas journal.
AHH ! i dun know how to scan the pic.
anw, its dam ugly.. better not show also. haha.
im starting to love my class..
all so helpful and polite.
just post on class fb wall , and all wanna help :D
thanks !
felt so bad.. everyone met up outside cheers today just to help me draw and yet.. i was not only 15mins late, i had also drawn it.
walked to class together. though dint talk much .. since i was the only girl there.
after 1 week , our whole class went canteen 3 and eat tgt :D
and i truly can see how all of them tried to liven up the whole mood of the class..
just cant stop laughing at everything they say .
Thank god , for giving me this wonderful people :D
Past Few Days


had a wonderful day in sch on friday .

though it was the longest day of the week, but i guess i enjoyed it?
Had 4hours of EG01 . Learning how to add and chat on facebook with MOT06? haha..
2hours of autocad.
Had to learn how to draw..
We were split into groups of 5.
and im the only girl in the group ?
Feel so weird at the 1st moment.. not so close with this grp of guys. Haha..
We had to start with drawing our friends faces?
and xavier was DAMN funny ttm.
he was the last to draw me.. and he had to draw my mouth ..
and he cant stop laughing when he saw the pic.. someone draw my nose till dam funny.. hahaha !
i was unfluenced by his laugh till my tears flow out. haha..
before he draw, he confirmed with me that he did not draw a thing yet.. haha.
shall scan it and put it up next post. haha.. study till 5, went piano at 6, went church at 8.

Soo Freaking tired today .
Dint sleep a wink last night..
Had bbq with primary sch friends last night till 11 plus.
and i cant sleep at all .. maybe was feeling too stressed today ? im not sure.
was suppose to wake up at 3am .
then baby called.. he find that i sound dam awaked.
and i told him i dint sleep at all..
While talking to him , i feel like sleeping.
and i told him that i wanna go only at 6.
he said ok .. but i still cant sleep.. so just wake up and went to church ..
im gonna sleep till i turn into a pig tonight.. haha.