Alright... Grandpa's cremation was today and im dead tired.. with less than 3 hours of sleep for the past to days...This 5days have passed too fast.. there aint enough time for me to keep standing beside grandpa's coffin and looking at him ... it's never enough... only managed to stay overnight for the last 2 nights cause needa go sch during weekdays... during the overnights. we, the cousins have become more and more closer than we were like before.. especially someone... you are my best godbro :D this year, my bday happens to be near the days when grandpa passed away ... there was a long session of recital or something on that night till 11 plus.. and at 11.30pm, andrew and dovin rushed down to buy cake for me .. i think that it is very memorable as i m able to celebrate with grandpa this year.. and this is the first time i m able to celebrate bday with my cousins from my mum side... its just wonderful.... not only that.. this godbro of mine is just so great.. whenever he sees me standing alone somewhere or look sad, he will come to me and comfort me or give me a smile when i happen to see him .. last night, you were so tired and you went back to the car .. but out of so many people, you text your bro and ask me go and sleep.. but i still dint.. really regretted.. was dam freaking tired today ... and my eyes can hardly open alright.. alright, i think i shall stop now... dun think im going to sch tmr... lazy to take paper :/ all i wanna say now is.. grandpa, join grandma in heaven now and rest in peace.
my tears just cant stop dropping even before i see you . whatsmore when i enter the A&E room? i have nth to say when i see you but keep crying... i have never agreed to let you go to jb's home.. cause i scared that i may not be able to see you agn and tc of you like how i used to.
can money be compared with lives? just spend lil more money and dun need to go thru all these... what can we expect from jb hospital .. stay for 3 days for RM39?? put him on the bed w/o clothes and tie him up .. never feed him at all and now he is dehydrating... maybe got water? 1 pack for 3 to 4 days?now he is having fever and lung infection and leg swollen when he was alright before going jb's home... he cant really talk now and no longer have the energy to move his hand... he also has bruises on his forehead and face... i remembered how annoying you may be for quarreling with mum.now, i just hope you can do the same again . . . i remember that when i did not rmb to bring keys home... i can always find you for the keys... i remember those days that you eat tgt with us as a family.. watch tv with us.. go outing with us.. celebrate new year with us.. i remember those days when we were still young.. mum would always hit us with the cane and you would protect us and ask her to stop... i remember you eating supper every night.. i remember you asking us to eat... i remember you buying food back for us to eat.. i remember how much you love us but you dint know how to express it... can things turn back to like before? seeing you how weak now is really terrible... why is there such word as regret? i dread people leaving me.. the thoughts of i cant see them anymore just makes me break out.. after 1 has left like 3 to 4 years ago.. i really hate the feeling..Do we have a choice?? everyone has to leave... someday and somehow... but you musnt go that soon ... mum said.. she will bring you home and tc if you get well no matter what... all we want is you .. getting well and coming back home...AND I AM SURE YOU WILL COME HOME.. god, please... save my grandpa ... i want to see him healthy again and see him eating with us agn and not using the pipe thru your nose and drinking milk . . i really dun wan that... GRANDPA, GET WELL SOON AND I LOVE YOU.
alright, i think i shall blog since im having this free time now. this post is mainly bought thanking :D on 27 aug, i wanna thanks kar kei, shi ying and amanda for coming down to my shop and help (: on 28 aug, i wanna thank farida for the sushi treat, jacelyn for the coffebean and ice cream treat. uncle simon and alvin for sending me home. thank renee, rachel and eunice for the wonderful time. on 29 aug, thanks grandma, grandpa, farida, uncle simon, jacelyn, alvin, aunty pauline, uncle imbert, eunice, eldon and edna for coming down to the shop and support. thanks to grandma for bringing food that she cooked for us. it has been a long time since i ate home cooked food. and it just taste wonderful till my tears just drop down . I wanted to call you and thank you , but had no courage. on 31 aug, i wanna thank amanda, shi ying and kar kei for accompanying me to study and shiying's parents for cooking lunch and dinner for us. It was another home cooked food that i really enjoyed.on 1 sept, i wanna thank aunty pauline for the movie treat and seoul garden treat. thank eunice, colin, eldon and edna for being there also :D thank colin for helping out in the shop almost everyday and being there for me too .i really wanna thank god too.. for giving me so many precious parents, god parents, friends and relatives that are just so wonderful to me. I love them and they are the best.
